I recently purchased an amazing 30-day program of journaling prompts. I’ve never followed journal prompts before although I do journal on a (mostly) daily basis.
The first day’s prompt was Money Is… of course Sabrina Marasovich (a pretty kick-ass woman of many talents and a member of a Mastermind group I’m in) gave us some interesting information along with the prompt itself and I sat down with journal in lap and thought “Some negative feelings are coming up here and I don’t really want to write anything negative!”
I know that thoughts become the things and events in our lives and thinking about something is a strong way to manifest and writing it down makes it even stronger so the thought of writing down anything negative gives me a fear that the thought will manifest in my life as reality. (Don’t get me wrong, I also realize that it takes intention to make a thought manifest, but I still don’t like thinking or writing anything negative.)
So I just started writing the thoughts that came into my mind and some pretty interesting thoughts came up (at least I thought they were interesting and my beloved husband agreed with me and we ended up having about an hour long chat about it afterward) so I thought I would share them here with you.
Thought: Money is elusive at times.
It actually plays hide and seek often which can be so irritating. Like a child that I want to come and take a bath and get ready for bed at the end of the day and I’m bone tired from working all day and that little cutie/monster is giggling and laughing and playing hide and seek.
I can hear him somewhere nearby, but I just can’t seem to find him. I’m calling out and still he won’t come. The bath water is ready, I am near tears with weariness and still he won’t come. So I leave the bath and start the search. He’s not in his bedroom, I even checked the closet and under the bed; same thing for my room.
As I search I am getting more and more frustrated. Now I am calling out with anger and even demanding he come to me; the bath water is getting cold dammit! I can hear him somewhere in a far corner of the house and he’s giggling and finding this game of hide and seek hilarious. I, however, am not finding it fun. At. All.
I am tired and don’t want to play the game.
I want to bathe this impetuous child and put him to bed so that I myself can get some rest from the day in and day out grind for the almighty dollar.
So how do I get that child to come? Demands? Threats? Not likely, unless I wanted to get both myself and the child upset and in tears.
Get playful. Have fun. Call out lovingly and sing-song “I’m going to find you!” and then listen.
Listen for his little giggle. Listen for his excitement.
Go in THAT direction.
Follow what you hear when you get quiet and listen.
Anger, frustration and impatience won’t do it. At least not in a fun way. Being still, loving, quiet, and receptive to having fun it what this will take.
Being PRESENT. Playful. Loving.
This will be the best way to respond to this situation.
If I look at money like a child playing hide and seek with me and I respond accordingly, then I need to be light and playful and loving and like the child, it will come to me. Come to me happily and playfully and willingly.
And then I stopped writing. And I got quiet and I wondered where all that had come from. And I realized. When I get stressed about money it is even more elusive and when I get present and playful then the money just shows up when I need it.
How does money make you feel?
I’d love to hear your thoughts.